I'm a Needy Freak

Here I thought my funk was gone, then I watched a chick flick, Dear John. Instead of making me all warm and fuzzy, it left me calling bullshit.

That is so far from reality. Are you kidding me with this whole "he loves her forever" crap?!? When exactly does that happen?

What's really bothering me is that I feel this way. I'm typically such a romantic, and I just can't figure out why I have so many negative feelings about this subject right now. I'm in love with an amazing man. As the boys would say, "he practically lives here." I still melt when he sends a sweet text, and abosultely cannot get enough of him. So...

Is it just the transition of going from just the two of us to having 3 kids around? Perhaps.

Is he showing less affection? I don't think so. He doesn't exactly scoop me up into a bear hug like he used to-like he's so glad I'm still around-whenever I show up. But that's normal, settling in to day to day life behavior.

Is he under a lot of stress right now? Yes, for sure.

Am I terrified of him leaving? Yes. Do I have any reason to think he is? No. 

Maybe I'm just a little more freaked at the thought now that I'm certain that I want to spend the rest of my life with him. Could be that. All I know is that I am craving romance like mad. I'm desperate for some sort of meaningful something that makes me feel like he's just as committed as I am. I don't need a ring or a proposal-that stuff can all wait. I just want to feel like he's in this.

He hasn't done anything wrong-not a single thing. So I just don't understand my feelings right now.

For whatever reason, I just need loads of reassurance right now. Really sucks being a girl sometimes.

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Have you ever tried talking to him? Sometimes, we just need a little something - an extra snuggle - to make it all feel better.

**hugs**